The courage to rest

Praying the ancient Vespers prayers at sunset. That's the life.

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail A few years ago, I found myself in a state of being perpetually overwhelmed. I mean, I still feel that way a lot of the time now, but back then it was worse. There was more of a sense of hopelessness, a feeling that I was sinking and couldn’t figure out how to pull… [Continue Reading]

Desert spirituality at two o’clock in the morning

Stars over the desert

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail Look at pretty much any culture that existed before the use of electricity, and you’ll see that they had deep superstitions about night. Throughout the ages, it’s been a nearly universal human belief that evil forces gained potency after the sun went down. Age-old evening prayers reflect fears of death: Now I lay me… [Continue Reading]

Six questions for conquering crazy-think and making good decisions

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail I don’t do suffering well. Some generous people said that they thought I handled the pulmonary embolism thing gracefully, but a) they would have retracted all of that and slowly backed away in fear if they could have heard my inner dialogue, and b) sitting in a quiet hospital room and listening to my iPod… [Continue Reading]

A few other things I learned from my month o’ doom

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail I‘m now entering week 10,000 of this pregnancy, with only 40,000 more days to go until the April due date! (I don’t have a calendar handy, so that’s just a guesstimate.) Also, I just found out that I’m seriously anemic, which will help me fill out my “Blood-Related Issues that Make You Feel Like… [Continue Reading]

Christmas, sorrow, and a song

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail I‘ve been meaning to ask this for two years, but have never gotten around to it. Now seems to be as good of a time as any: Can anyone tell me what this song is? (If you can’t see the player, here is a link to the recording.) During Advent of 2010 I had… [Continue Reading]

Teach me how to love the Psalms!

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail I‘ve mentioned before that I want to love the Psalms more than I actually love the Psalms. I can see that God has given us a treasure chest of Scriptural riches here, I know many folks who find these parts of the Bible to be an endless source of spiritual refreshment. But I always… [Continue Reading]

My (very late) word for the year

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail I didn’t choose a “word of the year” this year. The New Year happened to coincide a particularly low point in the book process, even by doomed project standards, and I scrapped the whole word choosing process when the only options I could come up with were: Futility Despair Floccinaucinihilipilification Then last Tuesday I… [Continue Reading]

Five bags for Alicia

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail Last Monday I did a major closet cleanout. It came about in the way all of my big household projects come about: I noticed that there was a problem, muttered something along the lines of I should do something about this at some point, promptly forgot about it, and ignored the situation until it… [Continue Reading]

An offering

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail Saturday morning got off to a grim start. As soon as I stepped into the girls’ bedroom, my sense of smell told me that my day just took a turn for the worst. Sure enough, my two-year-old had had an accident before she got out of bed. Though it was nothing close to the… [Continue Reading]

The Our Father, Word by Word – a roundup of posts!

FacebookTwitterLinkedInPinterestPrintE-mail When I wrote the first post for this series back in March, I thought I’d have it wrapped up by the end of Lent. I would have never guessed that the final post wouldn’t be up until almost December! Keeping up with the project required more work than I expected, but it was so much… [Continue Reading]