So I’m in a horrible mood today. We’re spending the weekend at my mother-in-law’s house and I’m worn out from traveling with two little kids and just grouchy in general. It’s one of those days where I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. A couple little things irritated me this morning and put me in an even worse mood and I’ve been sitting here stewing about all that is wrong with the world ever since.
I actually have a moment alone since the kids are out with my husband and his mother, so I took the opportunity to reflect and see how I can push through this funk. I tried praying, but it came out more as whining in God’s general direction (“Lord, did you see what So-and-so did to me?! That was so rude! Aren’t they just awful?! Look at what a bad person they are!”)
I realized that I was not going to pull myself out of this downward spiral of negativity, and I thought of the advice I recently heard that you can not do this sort of thing alone. We must have God’s help in order to be the people we need to be. So I pulled out the Abandonment Prayer that our RCIA director gave us and said that. As I read the part about abandoning myself to God’s will I thought, “Yes, this is what I need to do! I really mean that!…But how on earth do you do that?”
Once again, I am hung up on technicalities. I have no idea how one goes about abandoning oneself to God. Should I fall to my knees and pray continuously until the kids get back? Should I pray a rosary? Should I ask myself what Jesus would do in this situation and do only that? (I am going to re-name this site The Stupid Questions blog).
I don’t have much more time to write since everyone is about to get back, but I throw this out to you guys: what do you do when you’re in a horrible mood, feeling easily irritated by everyone and everything and grateful for almost nothing, and simply cannot pull out of it on your own?
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